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finchandsparrowTurns out that, to the best of my recollection and reasoning, my long-abandoned Supernatural Rewatch left off at season 8’s “Torn and Frayed” and I remember being floored by so much of this episode, especially the ending. I just found a thing that I wrote in reaction to it, apparently in February of 2019:
That the music at the end is so ambivalent. These two guys just ended relationships that are very important to them, that have been what they relied on to survive in the past year. That is massive. Those relationships were messy, but they were familiar. Their relationship with each other is not as familiar as it once was, and it’s messy at its very best. It’s practically in shambles right now. But they’re giving up other supports to try again with each other. It’s foolish, maybe. It’s sad, definitely. It’s not a touching moment.
I LOVE THE FIRST HALF OF SEASON EIGHT. All the personal history they’ve experienced over the past year, individually and without each other, that’s now inescapably a part of them? All the emotional and relational nagivations each of them are going through? It’s so complex and so MUCH and Show gave that to us??!?!?!!? Incredible.
Anyway but what I watched a couple nights ago was the episode after that one and CAN I JUST SAY that after like 16 months of growing increasingly obsessed with Critical Role and developing an interest in D&D and roleplaying games in general, I was just SO TICKLED to have 8x11 “LARP and the Real Girl” be my episode for jumping back in??
As soon as Sam and Dean showed up on screen I was like OMG LOOK AT THEM SITTING IN THE CAR, LOOK AT THEM EXISTING, GAAAAAHHH. Like, when I say “existing,” I mean existing in a specific moment in time, I mean that they hadn’t even said anything yet and I could hear the weeks they’d just lived through in the quiet, and I could feel the silence and not-silence of the past four hours of the drive in their posture. They were so immediate and tangible and wholly realized, and that always slays me—and did this time as well, to the point where I was like, I LOVE THEM TOO MUCH, I’M NOT GONNA MAKE IT THROUGH THIS EPISODE. But I made it, I made it! And it was so good. <333 This episode was light on the angst, considering what came before (Supernatural tends to play that balance, remarkable as it is, quite well). Little golden moments. I’m always impressed by the precision with which Charlie/Felicia Day plops that crown on top of Dean’s head. The Belladonna moment gets better every time I see it. Dean is the hugest nerd and I adore him for it. Also I like his hair this ep and he does so well in this rust color and costume and fake chain mail. And I adore Sam for volunteering to dive full-force into Moondor roleplay at the end, even though it’s not his thing. (I feel like Sam commits to setting himself aside like this—in not just big ways but also little ones—many more times than people recognize. I see you, Sam!)
And Y’ALL, TOP FIVE SHERIFFS OF ALL TIME.
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kalliel I didn’t even realize that this was the sheriff who said that until he said it!? What a legend.)
The episode I get to look forward to next is “As Time Goes By,” which I don’t remember (andkalliel this may have been another episode we were discussing in some capacity, and whose details I could not recall, lol) except that there's definitely a scene in which Henry Winchester gets carsick because I never forget puke or the threat of it, ahaha
That the music at the end is so ambivalent. These two guys just ended relationships that are very important to them, that have been what they relied on to survive in the past year. That is massive. Those relationships were messy, but they were familiar. Their relationship with each other is not as familiar as it once was, and it’s messy at its very best. It’s practically in shambles right now. But they’re giving up other supports to try again with each other. It’s foolish, maybe. It’s sad, definitely. It’s not a touching moment.
I LOVE THE FIRST HALF OF SEASON EIGHT. All the personal history they’ve experienced over the past year, individually and without each other, that’s now inescapably a part of them? All the emotional and relational nagivations each of them are going through? It’s so complex and so MUCH and Show gave that to us??!?!?!!? Incredible.
Anyway but what I watched a couple nights ago was the episode after that one and CAN I JUST SAY that after like 16 months of growing increasingly obsessed with Critical Role and developing an interest in D&D and roleplaying games in general, I was just SO TICKLED to have 8x11 “LARP and the Real Girl” be my episode for jumping back in??
As soon as Sam and Dean showed up on screen I was like OMG LOOK AT THEM SITTING IN THE CAR, LOOK AT THEM EXISTING, GAAAAAHHH. Like, when I say “existing,” I mean existing in a specific moment in time, I mean that they hadn’t even said anything yet and I could hear the weeks they’d just lived through in the quiet, and I could feel the silence and not-silence of the past four hours of the drive in their posture. They were so immediate and tangible and wholly realized, and that always slays me—and did this time as well, to the point where I was like, I LOVE THEM TOO MUCH, I’M NOT GONNA MAKE IT THROUGH THIS EPISODE. But I made it, I made it! And it was so good. <333 This episode was light on the angst, considering what came before (Supernatural tends to play that balance, remarkable as it is, quite well). Little golden moments. I’m always impressed by the precision with which Charlie/Felicia Day plops that crown on top of Dean’s head. The Belladonna moment gets better every time I see it. Dean is the hugest nerd and I adore him for it. Also I like his hair this ep and he does so well in this rust color and costume and fake chain mail. And I adore Sam for volunteering to dive full-force into Moondor roleplay at the end, even though it’s not his thing. (I feel like Sam commits to setting himself aside like this—in not just big ways but also little ones—many more times than people recognize. I see you, Sam!)
And Y’ALL, TOP FIVE SHERIFFS OF ALL TIME.
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kalliel I didn’t even realize that this was the sheriff who said that until he said it!? What a legend.)The episode I get to look forward to next is “As Time Goes By,” which I don’t remember (and
kalliel this may have been another episode we were discussing in some capacity, and whose details I could not recall, lol) except that there's definitely a scene in which Henry Winchester gets carsick because I never forget puke or the threat of it, ahaha
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Date: 2021-03-30 06:15 pm (UTC)Sam’s delivery of “...The poison.” XDDD It’s so so good.